So, i have just now hit the frustration with losing weight stage. please be advised.
i am SO JEALOUS of my roommate, rachel, she looks so good! like, total difference. and Seth too, though he's been working out pretty much non stop since we broke up...
but... i feel like i'm not really getting anywhere. like, i'm not doing enough. and i'm bored. like... there is a bit of a difference. my clothes fit better, but i'm still a 16. i would love to be able to fit into a 14, i would love to have to go out and buy new clothes... :sigh:
so i was thinking... what do rach and seth have that i don't have? the answer? a gym. i've got DDR which is getting annoying, tae-bo which was always annoying, two 5lb weights and two 3 lb weights. Saving grace is Seth coming over on Sundays to do yoga with me - nothing like doing yoga with your ex to get some motivation. its like... part i need to show off because he'll see what he's missing, and part i need to do better than him competitiveness, and part just pure anger which is motivation in and of itself, and part i get to see him struggle and suffer. ooooh, i'm an evil bitch sometimes, but if it gets me to work out...
I've gone for walks on all the nice days, but soon there won't be any for a couple months. I want to be able to take yoga classes, and salsa-robics, and get to choose between using the treadmill or the eliptical, or having all sorts of machines to do weights on. I MISS the GYM!!!
so, i'm gonna go work on joe's valentines present for a while and let dinner digest, and then, i'm gonna play DDR. I'll take a nice shower, maybe a face mask and paint my nails, and i'll go to bed. i can clean and stuff tomorrow. tonight i just need to make myself feel better and motivated and confident that what i'm doing is actually working.